I’m never gonna be enough for anyone. I’m just boring and they all figure it out and move on. No one wants me. And when they do it’s for sex for my body or for how easily I can get taken advantage of. I’m weak I act strong but I’m weaker than meets the eye. I just wanna wake up with someone next to me who smiles when they turn towards me cuz they’re just as happy to be my side as I am there’s. I’ve never had anyone do that and I highly doubt I ever will. I’m gonna end up alone and always struggling in life. I wanna change that but it’s just in my destiny to be alone&struggling.
Sometimes I think to myself if I’m ever gonna be enough for anyone. I know there’s someone out there that thinks the highest of me but how is it possible when I don’t even think that way of myself? I hate myself I hate everything about me no wonder everyone else gets tired of me sooner rather than later. I’m just never gonna be enough to anyone I hate everything around me and I don’t know why I’m even still here I don’t know why I keep trying to be happy when deep down inside I know I never am. I never will be.
I want to be skinny but I also want pizza for Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner. Do you feel me.